UpSiDe DoWn

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 07:45:43 GMT

tonight i watched THREE movies with my brosef. we watched no country for old men, which i was disappointed with, the ending was not satisfying. then we watched micheal clayton, AWESOME movie. lovedit. THEN we watched the brave one, with jodie foster. freaking lovved it.

now its almost 4 a.m. and im not tired and dont know what to do. ughhh.

life right now is really dull and repetitive, so friends that i dont see ever, can you pleaseeee talk to me. i need friends right now.

have a great and SAFE saint pattys day lol

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 23:58:30 GMT

today i learned being called a fat bitch is one of the most hurtful things anyone could call you.
i hearby ban it from my vocabulary.
thanks bye.

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 21:18:52 GMT

cheers to a new year. <3

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 16:27:51 GMT

R.I.P. lord willin'
you were an awesome fish.

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 08:40:47 GMT

i dont remember the last time i got a middle school crush on a guy. the kind where you pick your words very carefully, and you try not to overdo it, but want to make sure he knows youre interested. im so confused and lost over how to make a guy like me without immediately sleeping with him. because we all know the ending to that story. im working on the whole self respect thing, and ive been doing really well. lets just pray this isnt all for nothing.

keeping the faith, loving life, starving marvin, maybe going to sleep sometime tonight. <3

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 17:42:52 GMT

i want to change so bad.
i want to be happy.

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 18:02:26 GMT

for the record, im WAY over so-called friends that WILL not talk to me when certain people are around. im NOT quite sure i deserve it after everything ive done for you. so be my friend or dont. simple.

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 02:10:26 GMT

im desparetely trying to balance.
dont go too high, or too low.
im controlling myself.
i give in.
i hold out.
im trying to be the good friend.
the good daughter.
i have a month until i will be surrounded by my favorite people. all the time.
i can hold on til then.
but its hard.
just help me keep on keeping on.

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 14:55:29 GMT

i am a SUCKER.

happy 12th birthday zoe!

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 17:07:01 GMT

so about once a month i have an INTENSE dream that starts with me running from police for god knows what reason, and ends up turning into a zombie flick. where i always end up thinking ive been saved but really being caught in a dead end. and its awful.

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 04:55:10 GMT

so ive been working a ton lately. mornings, which i really hate doing because people come and go so quickly that the pace is about ten times faster than nighttime in the restaurant. and you know my fat ass doesnt like running around and sweating and stuff.
but today was honestly the hardest day of work ive ever had to go through, its started off with me coming in at 7:30 am to hostess and set up the banquet room for a party, come to find out ihave to serve the party. and its not a party, its an after funeral get together. the man who died was in his midforties, barely lived long enough to see his newborn, and the family was absolutely adorable and the nicest people on earth. i barely held it together while i was serving them, and as soon as the wife walked out the doors i started bawling. i think it was a combination of being over tired and the thought of having to do something like that if my mother died.
so tomorrow i have my first day off all week, and im not going to have another one til next weds.
please everybody, appreciate everything you have. your family. your friends. your life. before you know it it can be gone.
love.

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 18:35:02 GMT

things went very well last night, very successful.

of course this morning my parents show up at home with no warning after being away all weekend. in a scramble to clean up a bit i threw all the alcohol in my bed. OF COURSE my father comes in and sits on my bed and finds it. and of course it wasnt even mine, it was my dumb brothers. and he WONT take the blame for it. so theyre screaming at me tellingme i had people here, which i didnt! very unfair.

oh well.

im bartending tonight, come visit.

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 19:10:45 GMT

tonight is either going to be really good or really bad.

im a freakshow.

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 12:53:49 GMT

im eating the best bagel of my life right now.

i run on dunkin

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 01:18:38 GMT

i just finished my four nights of hell.
im very sore, and cranky cuz its that time of the month, if you know what i meannnn.
but im proud of myself because i made about $350 and put a good chunk of it into savings.
the next three days im going to be doing a lot of relaxing and hanging with not stressful people. because i need it. bad.
go me.

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 20:37:51 GMT

anyone wanna go to boston with me on weds?

WFNX/BOSTON PHOENIX BEST MUSIC POLL CONCERT -
featuring Bloc Party, Kings of Leon, The Bravery, Silversun Pickups, Say Anything and more

im totally serious about this.
get at me if you wanna go, im thinking renting a room for the night and spending the day thursday too.

Wed, 23 May 2007 15:16:21 GMT

if summer continues this way, its gunna be a good one.

beach soon?

im going to be working saturday- tuesday nights so party nights are weds thurs and fri.

i need a good fake i.d. where should i get one?

love ya'll<3

Thu, 17 May 2007 08:03:16 GMT

my advisor gave up on me getting in touch with him to talk about classes, and just gave me my pin number to register for classes.
so its four am and i just registered for four classes.
ive come to the very sad realization that im pretty fucked.
i failed english 100. so i have to retake it.
i got a d in math 100, so i cant take any more math classes.
i waited too long to register so i cant take the courses i need for my major.

but its cool.
im taking mis, clinical pysch, american perspectives, and intro to drama.
no classes before 11 am.
all the teachers seem easy, except my TBA in intro to drama. took a little gamble with that.
im not stressed about it.
still sticking to plan a. MARRY RICH.

im home for the summer, and im happy.

help me find a fun well paying day job for the summer!
<3

why am i awake?

Wed, 16 May 2007 06:37:01 GMT

i did a good job of setting myself up for that letdown.

i thought i was going to miss school and some of the people, but im pretty sure the only thing im gunna miss is hanging out with my girlies, getting high, and playing video games. but these are all things i can do home, and im sure ill see my karen, and sammy, and katie fullman plenty over the summer.

Tue, 15 May 2007 12:58:16 GMT

i am gunna be real upset if i dont get to watch pans labryth tonight, for real though.

Tue, 15 May 2007 01:26:50 GMT

HXC STUDYING + WOLFMOTHER = STUDY PARTY.
college is pretty cool.

Wed, 09 May 2007 19:38:04 GMT

just want all my friends to know that i totally and completely appreciate you.

and to all my friends from home, if you're around this weekend come by the house and visit my mommy, shes not doing too great and she loves to see all ya'll so just stop by and say hi.<3

Tue, 08 May 2007 22:54:09 GMT

i am a SUCKER.

Mon, 07 May 2007 06:20:20 GMT

my stomach is in knots right now.
its a mixture of eating wayyy too much at the diner on my double date with michele, sam, and adam, and a sickness from being reminded once again how little i mean to the guys in my life.
i dont expect much from the guys i sleep with. just give me a little respect. let me know when your gunna go back to your girlfriend. let me know when its just a fling. dont give me hope.
please.
im not going to remember you.

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 02:16:15 GMT

things arent real bad or real good.
im just living.
i like holidays because i get to see my family that lives real far away. and they are funy. i love it.
and yes the semester is wrapping up and its time to start buckling down so im not freaking out in a month.
im fully convinced that im moving to florida for my junior and senior year of collage.
i need it.